Originally published on my old blog: Nov 22, 2017.
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Thanks for clicking to read. Before you go any further, let me clarify that I am a Christian and I am talking about “giving my life to Christ” and giving up on pleasing myself every chance I get.
Still here? Cool!
I want to tell you about this journey of faith.
Before 2017, I was a millennial through and through. Still am. Just wiser.
I was hooked on prescription drugs. I was bored shitless with my life. I was always in pursuit of the next high, the next means of something, anything that made 24 hours worth staying awake through.
I had good moments, a lot actually. I was a high-achieving professional/entrepreneur. I was kind. I listened to people. I showed up at functions. But inside, I was drowning and bored and tired and sleepy.
In a fast-moving career in the crazy-evolving technology industry, I was overwhelmed with having to be online and hyper all the time.
I hated that my career’s worth was validated by strangers I’d never met, tired of hyping brands and products I didn’t believe in anymore and exhausted by the thought of all the things I still had to learn to stay relevant in my field – things I honestly didn’t care about.
In the midst of a dream career with so much traction, I dreamed of a life of authenticity and soul fulfillment – where I’d be exactly who I am every day, regardless of who I was yesterday or who I could be tomorrow.
So I quit.
I quit all of it. The drugs, the job, the friends, the pressure, the hashtag goals.
And I “pruned.”
I decided to stop moving, stop adding, stop doing and build on what was left of me. With that, I thought, I could become my own favorite kind of woman.
And I have, kind of, I’m still in the process.
In the months since July 31st, it’s been tough but I’ve never once had the urge to go back.
Some days I spend in bed, crying, reading, praying, feeling sick, broke; and other days, I feel happy-ish, consult for new clients, create content from my heart, make new friends, reconnect with old ones; and most importantly, connect with myself and my Spirit – God’s Spirit in me.
It’s been the best months of 2017! And I didn’t imagine I’d get to this point of peace so quick.
How does one give up everything and get more full? That’s the grace of God at work.
Since I switched up everything, I’ve stopped needing so much. I know that I have within me the power to handle anything that comes.
I’ve lost the fear of missing out. I’ve stopped seeking external validation, and I’ve stopped trying to network my way to success or even tolerate the presence of anything or anyone that doesn’t serve me right.
The stress of being alive is gone and I skate through every day with grace that truly astonishes me.
Do you need to make major changes to become more you, especially in the New Year coming?
Sign up for my online event on December 20th – Honest Chat: Lessons Learned in 2017. I’ll be sharing the ups and downs of “pruning” and how you can create a life and career you choose and love.
Register here for free.